Some days I just feel lonely.

Some days all I wish is that I could talk to you.

Feeling sick. Realized there is this playlist on my iPod. Cant recall from who. Not on my iTUNES, just the pod. Like I was plugged into someone else. Think it was you. Think you just transferred a play list from someone else. THE someone else. It all makes a little sense now. For some reason, this violation makes me feel ILL. So many reasons, so many levels.

My stomach is so violent and my heart beat is up. It's like all those other "just found out" betrayal moments before... Weird. Thought those would be over. And it never gets easier, the discovery.

Oy. I feel so sick.