Suck

I don't have any pretty words. I hardly have full sentences. I just feel confused, conflicted, alone, disappointed, unsure, scared and needy.

I guess it is the needy that sucks, because it puts everyone off. No one likes a needy person. But I am not by nature needy. But I am right now. Isn't that the nature of need? Occasional, unpredictable but intense?

They wouldn't call it need if it weren't immediate and inconvenient. And I do. I am sorry, I really am, it makes me feel bad and you feel irritated and cold. But I do need.