I am so sad in the morning. That's where I feel the imbalance the most. I know there is something huge missing from my world and I know right where it is. And I know I just have to get used to the hole.

Get used to the hole. Geezus. How can it be? How can you stop the crying with the hole? How can you feel...whole? Ha.

For now I just sit on my bed alone, rocking and holding my face on.

I wish I could have a hug. Ah, but there's that pesky hole again.