Oh god. I havent blogged this fast and often in succession in a while. I feel so fucking low.

I just cried...really sobbed...all the way through Glee. I never even watched a whole episode before. It means nothing to me. And I am heaving.

Did I waste my best chances being too difficult to love? Why am I so hard? I don't even love me, why would anyone else?

Oh god, have I missed my only shot?

I am so godforsaken lonely.

What do I do, what do I do?